Love, Hate, and Manipulation
This is part 2 of the Self-Care in September Series. For part 1, click here In dysfunctional families, we feel like we must do everything for ourselves. Our motto is “Depend on self. If it’s to be, it’s up to me.” We begin the story of Isaac and Rebekah during the long struggle of infertility. 20 years, month after month, they waited. The stigma … Read More Love, Hate, and Manipulation
Not Loved, Not my People
Chosen! “Not You” these two words would slash and dice my self-image over and over as a child as an adult as a wife as a mother as a friend. Come to think about it, there isn’t a situation that I can think of that these two words weren’t said to me. Once, I was invited to a birthday party so that a girl, … Read More Not Loved, Not my People
My Worth is Untouchable
How the letter “Y” creates heresy? In women’s ministry today, I am hearing more and more good women leaders confuse the words worth and worthy. I have been to different conferences, and listened to women that I respect tell the audience, “You are worthy.” The #MeToo movement brought sexual abuse to the forefront. Jesus restores the dignity of women like myself who endured abuse. … Read More My Worth is Untouchable
From Powerful to Powerless??!??
Power is intoxicating. Always has been. Eve wanted to be like God knowing good and evil. Taking on a role that did not belong to her, she ate the forbidden fruit to find wisdom. Isn’t that what we want? We want to be in control of our lives in every way. She wanted exactly what we want, “to be like God.” We are in … Read More From Powerful to Powerless??!??
She’s not one of us
Getting off the school bus, she was sure to walk a few steps behind the group of pretty girls, not wanting them to notice her. “Sticks and stones may break my bones, but your words kill.” She knew her place. As she crossed over to the other side of the tracks, she wondered what it would be like to own a new dress with … Read More She’s not one of us
Does God love me?
When Kai died, the trauma of loss and grief overwhelmed me in torrents of pain and sadness. At times the pain grew so intense, it left me gasping for breath. I was drowning in sorrow. How could a God who says He loves me, let me go through this? Isn’t He all powerful? Isn’t He good? There’s no darkness in Him, right? My pain … Read More Does God love me?
Grief GOT HARD! So I stopped blogging for what… 3/4 years. I don’t know. I’ve been thinking about starting again for a long time now. This journey of healing has been crazy. I will blog about the deep grief and recovery later, but in honor of Valentine’s Day, I’ve worked on a piece titled Unloved. Unloved From my earliest memories, I felt unloved. I … Read More Unloved